Tuesday, August 14, 2007

i think i'm gonna like it heeeeere!

imagine me singing that as little orphan annie...hope that makes you laugh a little...

anyway, today was an interesting day, but good. i'm in that kind of lonely-ish place right now, and was pacing around the house thinking all sorts of things that were just going to lead me to being really upset...and i already started randomly crying once today...so, i decided it was time to sit and write some of the the happy, good, fun, exciting, non-scary, non-sad things that happened...

got up early, made it to school early...met some nice boys, and some cute boys, and some of them were single, and some were lds (although most weren't both...dang)... law school is going to be a lot of work, but seems manageable (if i can just get focused and stop wasting time with the upset-pacing)...got some jamba, found the building where the singles ward that i think i'll be going to meets, got cheap gas, talked to a nice random lady who asked where i got my shirt... hmm...and don't forget: free room and board, and lots of other things too...plus a nifty scholarship...makes my life a lot easier...if i can just keep focused on the good stuff and stop worrying about other stuff...

you know, that seems to be a typical thing in life though...focusing on the good instead of the bad...i know that God gives everyone their own mix of blessings and trials, but sometimes i wonder if the things that are our trials are our biggest worries because they are our trials, or if they're our trials because their our biggest worries...does that make sense? like, do we get upset about whatever it is that God hasn't made how we want it? or does God specifically not give us whatever it is we really want because that will be the most effective trial? hmm...maybe a bit of both i suppose...

sometimes though it seems i come really close to having just what i want...not quite, but close...just have to remember to be happy and appreciate it for what it is and quit wishing that it were something else or something more... maybe i just live too much in my daydreams and not enough in reality...oh well...

i have a 45 page article on cross-cultural lawyering to read, among other things... *sigh* just gotta put myself into my work, and maybe all this silly stuff will go away... or i just need to be with people more... when i'm with people i'm much happier than when i'm by myself...with other people it's easier to be my party self instead of my pity-party self...haha

oh, speaking of party selves, i promised more fun g'ma stories...
so, this afternoon while i was at school, my g'ma went out to lunch with some friends...except "out to lunch" actually means, out for appetizers and margaritas...yep, g'ma and the cronies, all in their late 70s or whatever, out drinking margaritas in the middle of the day...haha...and apparently she was talking about this to the really elderly lady that she takes care of sometimes, and she might take her "out to lunch" sometime...yeah, the 90-year-old one...haha...
she aksed me if i knew what a margarita was...i said we make virgin ones sometimes...she says they're better with taquila...i think she has some in the cupboard, no, wait, maybe that was vodka...haha, oh well...

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