blank page was all the rage...

never meant to say anything
in bed i was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest...

you were easy you are forgotten
you are the ways of my mistakes
i catch the rainfall
through the leaking roof
that you had left behind
you remind me of that leak in my soul...

i wish i was blank
i wish i could think...

i'd write a letter to you
and there'd be nothing to it
i wouldn't hem an haw
on just how to start it
i wish i was blank...

i wish i'd said things different
i wish i'd said nothing
things would be so perfect
i wish myself to keep
i pray my soul to sleep
i wish myself away
i wish i was blank...

say goodnight on a night like this
if it's the last thing you ever do
it goes dark, it goes darker still
please stay
but i watch you like i'm made of stone as you walk away...
can't stand here like this anymore...
i wanted to be perfect like before...
i want to change it all...

i know we're just like old friends
we just can't pretend that lovers make amends
we are the reasons so unreal
we can't help but feel that something has been lost...

so far i still know who i am
but i wonder who you were

sleep will not come to this tired body now
peace will not come to this lonely heart...

but sometimes a someone is so hard to find...

disarm you with a smile
and leave you like [you] left me here
to wither in denial
the bitterness of one who's left alone
the years burn...

a year ago i became an ex. saying it that way makes it sound like a beginning instead of an end. i hope it was. i had a whole blog pre-written for the occasion, but decided to leave it unposted. time for a new page. and new pages are always blank.

so i pull my collar up and face the world alone










































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