...a night of major life-altering drama is always interesting. you wake up with a bit of a headache, and realize that maybe a new world isn't so scary after all.
i took sam to the airport. that was a bummer, but i am soooo thankful that she was here this week. it was so much fun being here with her, and she really helped me remember who i am and go do some things that i needed to do. it will be hard to deal with the aftermath without her, but i'm a grownup, right?
went to jamba this morning. got the favorite pink star: no soy sub low-cal base no sorbet light froyo sub pine sub strawb extra strawb 2 cups...so delicious. and the chick wants me to work there...she even got my name and number. i could use some extra cash.
chatted with my mom on the phone a bit. that was good.
and here i am at school way in the AM. i need to catch up on the work i wasn't doing while i was playing with sammie. i haven't been at school this early since...um...orientation? haha!
sigh...i'm feeling pretty good right now. but i know i need to be careful, cuz the excited-slash-pissed-off thing can never really be sustained 24/7 and so i'm still in danger of some drama-trauma relapses, and possible sudden cry-bouts and massive self-esteem deficits.
but! today is the 40th day, and although i didn't meet the exact terms of my goal, i think i managed an acceptable alternative, consisting of (1) massive bridge-burning ceremony with some necessary but cruel honesty, and (2) some raft-building which should help sustain me until i find some good bridge-building materials. to be precise, i ended the lingering travis-issue, and i already have two dates set up with two different guys. bam. feeling...well...good? meh...as well as can be expected...and maybe even a little better
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