i'm back!

in spokane, and school...

but most importantly, i'm feeling like my old happy self again. the past...gosh...almost two months now i guess...i've kind of been a mess...

i just learned something though - there is something really satisfying in the knowledge that you've overcome a trial. but, i don't mean the ability to wait it out or fix it: what i mean is that if you can find happiness even when you're still in the middle of the trial, somehow that kind of happiness is so much more fulfilling than being happy any other time. it's because you know that it's the kind of happiness that comes from faith and hope in God and not just because good things are happening to you. haha...i suppose the truth is that good things are always happening, and so are bad things, but when you learn to be happy in spite of all the things that are happening, even when the bad ones are still really bad, it sets you free from those things and events in a completely different way. hmm...am i making sense? haha...

but, i guess that's a lesson that you keep learning and re-learning all though life. i suppose each time the trial just gets harder, but then when you pull out of the muck and rise above it you've grown a little more...and i guess that's what life's about, huh? oh my...i wonder what other beautiful trials i have to look forward to...oh my! but i guess the blessings are better too...

anyway...i spent too much time chatting online tonight when i should have been studying more, but i'm feeling really great right now, and i just wanted to spread a little of that around... (especially since i've sort of been acting rather eyore-ish lately...little stormcloud over my head...so, i feel like i need to make up for it a bit)

anyway...time to continue the self-makeover with some yoga and scriptures! g'night!